Today I am officially full term. It has gone so fast this time around. Most of my friends have been saying how I really seem to be doing so well at the end of this pregnancy--energy, moving around, etc... My friend Sarah keeps saying how I haven't complained about ANYTHING at all and how I must be doing so well. I guess I'm just not that much of a complainer, at least about my pregnancy? I just feel very lucky to be pregnant. It's been a kinda tough pregnancy mentally on me this time around. The hormones have made me a bit crazy but it seems to have gotten better towards the end here. Add in there have been a lot of unfortunate circumstances for pregnancies for quite a few of my friends and acquaintances while I happened to be pregnant too this time around. It's made me realize that life has no guarantees and I really will only breath a sigh of relief when Adrian is out and gets the A-OK from the docs. Of course, then starts a whole nother set of worries (sids, rsv, allergies, etc). I keep reminding myself that things will go as they are supposed to go and God has a plan. And there is no use worrying about anything. It is the way it is. I've always been a worrier but actually have been able to control it better as I've gotten older. Plus, I've looked towards my friends who've all had healthy babies recently (or who are having worry-free pregnancies right now) to remind myself that just because I've had a lot of friends who have had troubles it doesn't necessarily mean it will happen to me, too.
And really, I don't have much to complain about. Sure my hormones tend to a be a bit wacky and I've had some big issues with heartburn and varicose vein/spider veins this time around. But other than that, I'm doing well. Those are easy to deal with when you consider what could be happening (blood pressure, preclampsia).
But anyway, yesterday Matt and Maddy went out after fixing Adrian's dresser and I put away all the rest of the baby clothes. Then I sat in his glider for about 10 minutes and just SAT there. It was about the first time in this pregnancy I've had time to sit and contemplate that I'm about to have a baby in two weeks! That I will be holding my newborn and being able to snuggle him. Yes, I've been prepping for him. The room is done, the carseats are installed and checked by the fire department, our bags are packed, etc... but I haven't had the opportunity to sit down and savor the idea that pretty soon I'll be a mommy again. Yes, I'm not quite looking forward to the late night feedings, etc. But I am looking forward to getting my own body back (at least partically since it will be on 'loan' while I'm breast-feeding, hopefully).
We've also feel so blessed to have such great friends and family. I can't believe how many clothes Adrian has! I haven't had to buy any at all, really. Plus we've had two baby showers this time around and that has been very sweet of people (especially since I tried not to have the second one--instead I turned it into donate to your favorite children's charity, no presents please. But still received four gift bags of clothes!).
So I guess we're basically ready! I can't believe it. I think Maddy will do pretty well with Adrian. Of course, there will be some adjustments, but she really is such a well-rounded kiddo that I think it will go as well as can be expected. We've been prepping her accordingly--reading lots of 'bringing home baby' books and 'big sister' books (one that I wrote--a social story, I used to write them all the time for prefacing new situations for kids with autism--works great for ALL kids though).
So there ya go. Only 15 more days go to until my scheduled C-section! March 30th, here we come (if he doesn't com earlier).