(That was the question I asked myself when I made it to the end of this blog. Nothing like starting out fluffy and then getting all philosophical.)
On Sundays I tend to start thinking about the next week. So let's see...
Tomorrow, nothing particular going on. Maddy and I may make a few trips out depending on weather to Kmart to take back one of the pillows that don't quite match the duvet cover. Maybe to Target to take back a rod I bought for the bay window a long time back. If I can find the receipt. And Lowes to take back some clamps Matt didn't need. If the wetaher is nice I'm sure we'll spend some time at the park, too.
Tuesday we have playgroup with ages 1-2 first thing in the morning. It'll be interesting trying to get out the door at a specific time. But Maddy will LOVE to play with other kids.
Wednesday night I have a 'sleep over party' being hosted by one of my mom's from my local mom's group. What is a sleep over party you ask? Well, they serve you lots of wine (ok as much as you want without looking like a lush) and have you play with sex toys. It should be so much fun, funny and a blast! It's basically a Pampered chef party for the bedroom. Nice part though is when/if you order anything it's done privately with the consultant in another room. I've opened up the invite to my other mom's group and I've had one taker so far. I will need to ask again for my RSVP. Hey, I'm willing to go to any place that gives free wine! ;)
Thursday night (on the opposite side of the coin) I have a Sunday School meeting.
Monday and Tuesday nights will be spent with Matt finishing up things in the basement before the drywallers come on Friday. I offered to cancel my Mom's Night Out on Wednesday to give him more time, but he insisted (and yes, that was before he knew it was all about sex toys, too).
Friday morning we'll have a crew of about 4-5 guys in our basement putting up drywall and mudding it!
They will most likely be back on Monday to sand and paint. So we need to get on picking a color for that room ASAP! I see a nice taupe in our near future or a buttery light yellow.
After it's painted, we need to think about getting carpet put in down there (after the bathroom is finished). We aren't sure how much of the closet we want carpeted. I'm thinking about doing the front wide part with carpet but the back deep long term storage with flooring. We'll see! We have the flooring for the bathroom already (same as the rest of the bathrooms and foyer).
The bathroom will need to be finished after the drywall guys come in, but first we need to find a tile guy for the bathtub walls before the plumber can come back out to finish the bathroom. Then, then, then!!! We load up the room with all our stuff and we have a spare room! Whoo whoo! I can see the light at the end of the tunnel even though it's still a good month away!
I have to say I was pretty worn out tonight after Maddy went to bed. Matt keeps asking me if I'm mad at him. I keep telling him that REALLY I'm not. I'm just tired and worn out. It's like there's nothing left inside of me to keep on the happy face. All I want to do is lay down, read and go to bed. He assumes that if I don't want to hang out with him it means I'm mad at him. (Which, given, sometimes it can mean that.) But really, I'm just too worn out to hang out. It's just time to vegetate and be alone. And it's not that Matt doesn't give me time to myself. I got out last night after Maddy was in bed and I got out today. I'll be getting out on both Wednesday and Thursday on my own, too. And Matt takes Maddy as often as he can so I can get a breather. There are just some days that are easier than others and it doesn't always have anything to do with how Maddy's day has been or how much I've seen Matt or how long she's slept. There are just some days that I'm more into it than others--having nothing to do with outside forces. Today was one of those days.
Not that I'm complaining! I have life pretty darn good! I have a great family, food on the table, clothes on our back, friends and family who care about us, two cars that run and are paid for, a house we own and have the financial means to fix up. Our family is in good health. We have money in the bank, Matt enjoys his job. I have the great opportunity to stay home with Maddy and I really enjoy it. We live in a great area with great neighbors in a great country with the freedom to worship and state our beliefs whatever way we want, too. Everything else that we have??? (And we have a lot of very nice extras.) It's all extra riches we've been blessed with but are totally unnecessary. Life is good. And the little things that creep into daily life have a way of worming their way around becoming irritations. I just thank God that I only have those 'little things' to deal with and not horrific big things (poverty, homelessness, loss of a loved one, abuse, ill health) that unfortunately do afflict people.
Of course the next step is, If I have it so good, how can I help others who don't? Matt and I have discussed this and worked out solutions to this question in our own way. Obviously, it's a very private matter (although sex parties aren't) so it's not something I'm willing to discuss. But how have you answered that question?
Goodnight!
*Crossing fingers for no insomnia*
Tea of the day: I had coffee this AM
WO of the day: None